My how time has flown. My sweet daughter, my angel, is nine today. Not sure how that happened - I could swear when I went to bed last night, she was still a wee little girl. When I think about Caroline I can't imagine what I did to deserve such an incredible daughter. While pregnant with Caroline, I prayed specifically that she would have auburn colored hair and brown eyes. Such an insignificant prayer. But one answered nonetheless. Bright, loving, kind, articulate, thoughtful, talented, beautiful. I know I sound like a proud mama. I admit it I am. Caroline is MY miracle.
Every time I look at her I see the love and hand of God and know that He truly loves me through my gift of her. I got married later in life and had Caroline 2 weeks before my 32
nd birthday. She was born exactly 11 months after we got married. My pregnancy was relatively uneventful. She was breech the entire pregnancy and I felt like I was to have a c-section. The doctors wanted me to try and turn her. We did... We shouldn't have. I was 10 days past my due date and they decided to induce due to low amniotic fluid. When I was in the hospital, a constant feed on her heartbeat couldn't be maintained so they decided to break my water and put in an internal monitor.
When my water was broken she collapsed on her prolapsed cord and her oxygen was cut off and her heartbeat went down to nothing. Next thing I knew, a myriad of nurses and hospital staff were in my room. My family was made to leave, I had an oxygen mask put on, was being lifted onto a gurney, codes were being called and I was being raced down the hallway to the operating room. I was to have an emergency c-section under general anesthesia. I have 2 distinct memories of asking the nurse to save my daughter and praying harder than I have ever prayed for anything else in my life.
Caroline had an
agar score of 1 when she was born. We were told to prepare for brain damage or other problems. She was in the
NICU for 7 days. The Lord had other plans for Caroline as she came home healthy.
Caroline did not have brain damage or any lasting affects from her traumatic birth. She is very bright. Tested into the gifted program at school in kindergarten. She enjoys learning, loves to read and learn about history and has a knack for science.
This year has been an exciting one for Caroline. She is loving every minute of private school. It challenges her both intellectually and spiritually. She loves memorizing scripture and learning Bible stories, and is thriving with the rigorous academic atmosphere, (although there are times she wishes it were a bit easier). She is making friends and is even somewhat getting used to wearing a uniform every day.
She is starting to grow up. She'll tell you she is being bugged to death by her little brother on a regular basis. She loves him dearly, but is discovering that she likes to have her own space without him around all the time. She is still the dramatic little diva, who can get worked up pretty quickly. Becoming the '
tweener' she is, we are working on maintaining a pleasant attitude, even in the midst of doing chores AND homework; even when on electronics restriction (definitely not an easy thing to do!) Always a prissy little thing, although she has discovered she has a knack for physical fitness, having earned the President's Physical Fitness Award at school this past year. (I can't believe she can do those pull ups - I never could).
She would say the worst day this year was when we had to sit down and have the Birds and Bees talk. She can't imagine for the life of her, why anyone would want to do
that!. She still loves Auburn (good girl that she is). She currently has plans to become a
veterinarian when she grows up. Of course she wants to be a
veterinarian that also does Irish dancing and plays the violin. Could make for an interesting career!
Caroline is becoming a really cool kid that I enjoy hanging out with and find a lot of fun to be around. Becoming such a beautiful young lady, inside and out. Not a day goes by that she doesn't take the time to ask James, Jack and myself how our days went. She also is always so good to remember things we have mentioned going through and asks about them. She keeps a little prayer journal so she can remember others' prayer requests and is faithful to pray for them. She is a joy to her family. She is MY miracle....one I thank the Lord for every day.